SOUL MATE

Why does it feel just right with you?
Why does it sound all deep and true?
Why does it look so bright not blue?
Why does it stick real firm like glue?

Is it because it's always been you,
Across time and space all through?
Were we never ever far and apart,
Even when life was playing its part?

Tell me my love, my mate of soul,
Is that why you make me whole?
Is that why when it's dark and trite,
In me you and in you I find our light?

Holi

Hands smeared with colour

I stood long at your doorstep

To colour your countenance

With a bit of myself

At last you appeared in the doorway

Wearing a worried look

Many unknown hands reached you

Before I could raise mine

A purple face you raised

To look at me through untouched eyes

I found your cheek and neck

And brushed your tender bosom.

A warmth spread through my being

And flowed through outstretched hands

My colour on your face and body

Said more than I ever had.

Destiny reclaimed

Diffidently

I had accepted

My fate

As others wished

The world

Loomed menacingly

And drowned

My little voice

I writhed

And cried silently

But could not

Take my step

The coward

In spineless armour

Masqueraded

As my real self

Lashing out

I hit the world

Which shrank

With a hurt look.

My destiny

From them I snatched

And changed it

As I had wished

The world

Hovers all around

With an envious

Regretful glance

I stand atop

With a wry smile

Hey!

What can you do now?

Promises

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Again and again I have hurt you

And dug deep into your wounds,

My own wounds still unhealed,

I have wanted you to just go...

For once I know

Who I want and that is

None but you.

Never will I hurt you

Or open old wounds

As I have thus far done.

Like a flower

I'll keep you love

Forever, with tender care.

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Hopes and memories

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A cigarette is lit

Up in smoke it goes

It is lit again

Raindrops fall

And go into the ground

They fall again

We meet to love

To love and part

And go our separate paths

Raindrops will fall

Cigarettes will be lit

Will we ever meet again

To stay

And not to split?

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In the silence of

My room thoughts

Rush into my mind

Flooding images

Of days gone

Alone I relive those

Moments known to

Her to me

And the four walls

Silently looking on

They understand

And ask

No questions

Just comfort me

I feel strong.

Time flies things

Change; my room

Is still the same

It shelters me

I feel no pain

In the silence of....

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Lamp of love

You are the petite damsel with

Eyes like deep pools of love,

Laughter like a musical mountain stream,

Hands like little buttercups and

Gait like a gentle, majestic tigress who

Draws me, pulls me

Ever so gently, ever so surely to

The milky tenderness of

Her proud little breasts.

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The cloth that rests

On your tender self

Rings bells of bliss

And happiness

So full of life

Frolic and fun

Ain't you divine,

My angelic one?

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For long I lay buried

An average man.

Born into the world

To leave my mark

I died young

After a brief flicker.

Living among masses

Of anonymous existence,

Life was a mundane chore.

You came along

And lit my lamp

And I did flicker again

The glow of hope awakes me

To know myself anew

With you my love

I'll move the world

Will you light

This lamp forever?

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Despair

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There is nothing more to write
I have written all I could.
My mind refuses to think,
What is there left to brood?
A strange feeling envelops me
I'm so empty and yet so full.
Heavy eyes and tired brain
Repel even trivial matters,
I want to sleep but it doesn't come
I move through time in a daze.
I hate to work, I hate to talk
Questions I loathe to answer,
The answers are so many
And yet there's nothing to say.
Friends, peers and others
Ask me what is wrong,
I lie to say I am well
When I know, as you do,
Without you, I am going over...
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Alone for months
Thinking of you,
WIth only a phone
To caress and soothe
With the voice
Of distant love.
Stubborn distance
Why don't you yield
And let us be
To stroke and feel
With the silence
Of close embrace?
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You look beautiful
No more.
Where has gone
The face I love?
Those large, innocent eyes
Now scare me
With their consummate skill
Of glowing with love
To many a man
All at once.
Deep in them
The calculator whizzes;
A smile is beamed,
The voices softens
And many fall...
I look at you
Your eyes avert
They know I know.
Your lips look swollen,
Your teeth distorted
The smile a fake
As is the voice.
One fool
Will fall no more...
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My destiny from God I snatched
And gave it to my love
She walked away with a shrug:
Who needed it anyway?
God and destiny laugh at me
As I stand alone without a path
I've begun to dig onto the earth
No further can I go.
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The light of long dead stars
Crowds into my heart,
My dim flame it snuffs out
A black hole I too have become.
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